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Love, and relate to this line, ā€œIā€™m not made for the world I wander in, and I feel it deeply.ā€

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It's real, friend. A constant pull.

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Who am I? A question I'm familiar with. I was a small boy (now a small adult). I never really thought about it until I was a pre-teen. My image of a man was the Marlboro Man from the commercials. A tall handsome man on a horse smoking a cigarette. Not exactly a goal I could attain. With the hormones kicking in also came a mass of pimples. Needless to say, my self esteem was very low.

So, who am I, what could I possibly be. Weird is what I was as a teen. I remember sitting in the floor of a corner store with friends waiting for another friend to finish cleaning up just before the store closing. The cashier brought a friend of hers to introduce her to us. She named off the other guys and then she said "And this is a Robert Switzer". I look toward the woman. She had on high heels, A nice one piece dress, fancy glasses, and her hair was piled up on her head. She was tall, and I thought to myself, she's an Amazon, and that I wanted her. Not that I would have a chance. But I had forgot a prayer asking God to put someone in my life to love a couple of years earlier. My size, pimples, and age differences concerned her. She had been in a very abusive marriage and I was a different type of male than she had met. Five years later we were married. So for the next fifty years I knew who I was.

I'm now a widower with a daughter and her two autistic sons living with me. My who am I has changed to who am I in God? I have been leaning on God since my wife's death. A friend has led me to a wonderful men's Bible study group and their church. It has a fantastic pastor who was one of your students. I am learning a lot about myself and God. I now know that I am to be a Christian, trusting and serving God so much more than I use to.

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I love this so much. Thank you so much for sharing and for being so vulnerable. It truly is a gift to me :)

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Iā€™ve not met you. Only watched you, listened to you and read your writings.

Shane, one in whom the Spirit of the Christ dwells; He is pleased with you.

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I needed this comment today in a way that's hard for me to express. Thank you :)

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Sep 11Liked by Shane J. Wood

I definitely resonate with seeing myself in the old nature. As i grow to see and accept that in the flesh ā€œthere is no good thing in meā€ i am also growing in the joy of the times i partner with Him to walk in my Spirit enlivened new nature.

Who am i grows and changes almost daily as i interact with the Word, books i am learning from, people i interact with, time spent with Him, adjusting to my aging challenged bodyšŸ˜ƒ

I feel more fluid and relaxed about pinning down that answer.

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Yes! I love how the Word challenges us each day in unique ways. Thanks for this :)

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Sep 5Liked by Shane J. Wood

Asking the question ā€œWho am Iā€, is one that has always led me to disappointment. Iā€™ve never been the who my mind thinks I am. I have only found satisfaction in replacing the ā€œwhoā€ with a ā€œwhatā€. The question then becomes ā€œWhat am Iā€? All the shortcomings found in the who are replaced with the faith found in ā€œwhatā€ God has created me to be. Trusting God to be ā€œWhat I amā€, a child of God. Viewing life through Godā€™s lenses, even then a Camel can go through the eye of a needle!

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What a fascinating addendum. I will have to think through this more myself. I do find the identity question in varying iterations essential for Christian living. Thanks friend :)

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